Open Your Eyes

Today was different.

I was in new classes, one of which was out of lack of a better alternative.
I spoke to people I hadn't spoken to in months and some even years, I was open to everything that came my way and things started happening. It was like 'Yes Man' but.. not.


PE was my first class; I practically vowed to myself in earlier years that I wouldn't go near the subject once it wasn't compulsory, but of course I found myself in it and picking up everything, going with the flow completely. I was invited to a party during that class, by an old friend who I didn't particularly like anymore. My intuition told me it was because I was walking next to her, and another girl who mentioned the party that got me invited; but other friends were going, I hadn't been to a party in literally a year and I didn't at all care, but it was a shock; I was invited to a social event- weird, but it was opened to me because I stepped out of my comfort zone.

I was moved into a different version of math, one of J's friends were in it. He was the only one I knew, or at least cared to talk to, so I sat next to him and found myself enjoying the lesson. A huge bludge in terms of work and learning math, but I learnt so much biology and our friendship became, more of a friendship.. rather than just being acquainted. It's always been a worry to me that I wouldn't get along with my boyfriend's friends, I would hate to seem like I'm a girl without a personality, sense of humour or brain, yet happens to be with the most amazing person in the whole world. I would seem like a waste. And although it's J's and my relationship, not anybody else's.. it's nice knowing you're accepted by your boyfriend's friends. you know?

I found out I wasn't pregnant. that's always relieving :)

I expected to be late for my next class, I was hopeful to see my new class and teacher, jump straight in there fresh and get top marks. While two students went to find our missing teacher, there were two people left standing in the door way of a highly brightened room. She was a girl I had spoken to in year 7, I'm unsure of how we were friends, or if we were at any point, but I remember speaking to her. She spoke much more than I expected and the more she did the more her face seemed to deepen. She was a plain girl initially, thick orange curls clumped on her shoulders, glasses and an unexpected, relatively high-pitched voice. She was a lot more confident than any of her friends(the ones I knew anyway), conversation followed us until we reached our lockers once told our teacher really wasn't coming.
I was going to meet new people, I could tell.

I hopped on the train and saw someone I knew.
He had dark, galactic circles around his small, soft eyes and had dusty ginger hair parting from his centre forehead, falling past his ears. He knew who he was but he seemed... some-what.. scared. I didn't know him, not personally; as soon as I walked onto the train we caught each others eyes, I instantly smiled and when I sat a few rows away from him, he smiled back and winked. I wasn't expecting that. I looked away without appearing too rude.
He was in his late twenties or near about, and I was surprisingly not worried, not initially, not until my logic gurgled and made me questioned if I should get off at a station earlier and walk the rest of the way home. I had a feeling he would get off at the station before me so I sat where I was and when the train stopped at the station before mine, he got up and walked to the door directly at my left. 'Knew it. My head-phones were in and playing, but I saw him smile and say what I believed to hear as 'cya'. I smiled back and watched him walk down the station somberly as the train past, he was not happy person, not at that point in his life.
It's doubtful we'll ever cross again, but we met, we crossed, we parted. Perhaps we did once know each other, or maybe he just looked like someone I recently saw in a movie; who knows? The point is that it was exciting, today had an adventurous spirit!


The day had been so refreshing. It wasn't anything fantastic, but it was different, exciting.
Small joys come from the unexpected. sometimes.

Most of all I cannot wait until friday when I'm going to have an absolutely terrific time, with the person I adore most, J. Because I want to. Genuinely. Really. really really REALLY :)