Wonderful Feeling

I think it would be nice to be friends with the opposite gender. How I wish it were possible, I know it is possible, but it is rare to find where the two aren't sexually or emotionally into one another in a romantic way.
I'd like to incorporate friendships into my life, where I can have masculine energy around me, and be in my masculine 100%, also.
My karma doesn't look so bright in this regard.. but I did try to make things better with my ex-boyfriend's ex-best friend (who is a girl), so perhaps I do have the cards for it.
I like males, they're funny and take risks, they're not scared of as much as girls are (or at least, they don't show it) and they know how to have a good time basically, they're not afraid to get filthy and just.. be up front even with people they don't like. I've learnt a lot recently, especially hanging out with a group of girls for a couple of hours, and it is that... being with someone is so much more than finding someone attractive, than getting along well with their personality, it's more than even thinking about a person is a certain light.. it's a whole new feeling all together. You respect the person on another level, you respect them for all their choices, even the ones that aren't in your favour (within reason), you look at them but can't help but smile because they're just such a great person and they're making the world a better place, you could give them anything simply because you can and want to. That is how is should be at least. It feels great to feel this way, unfortunately it leaves me hanging alone because the person I feel this way about.. we tried it, we didn't work, we both left heart broken. and I understand that, I feel the situation and I accept it, trying.. but succeeding. Regardless, it feels great having love in my heart, that wishes the very best for people, that truly loves everything a person is, simply because life is full of mystery and wonder.. scary, weird, uplifting, crazy things that are confusing and so complicated.. but so wonderful.