It's Not Too Late To Apologise

The last blog post was also selfish, writing 'I' the entire time. "should I do this?" "How fucked up am I?" "I'm ridiculous".
That's the kind of talk that needs to be cut out.
Positivity is the key, and self-criticism to an extent, but not to an obsessive, selfish extent. But to question what I do, think, feel and say, and what I am trying to achieve out of it.
lets go for an example, right now. why am I writing all this? I don't know why I should write anything at all, I guess that's why I don't express how I'm feeling or thinking a lot, because other people will never really understand the way you need or want them to. I'm writing to get all this out to you because I don't have the confidence or time to think about what I want to say to you.
But why don't I 'have enough time'? Is it that I'm not being honest? But I am being honest. and right now yet again I'm being selfish. how can you explain to someone a thought, a single thought, and express its complexity in it's entirety. fuck.

The goal is to focus more on others, not on myself. The idea is to question how other people will feel and think if I do, say or think something. It's putting others before myself, and not in a naive way either.

I cant apologise enough for everything.