Fcuk

I felt hopeless, I felt.. so alone and you are so distant, I hate it. I hate not having you around, not being able to look at you or hug you and kiss you. and frankly, I'm not a big fan of myself at the moment either. I haven't been assertive, self-confident, or hold much will power.
People want to sell me shit and I gave this woman my email (my old email) 'incase I want to buy online', I let some woman who wasn't the woman who said she would do it, put two braids in my hair that looked like shit, said it was okay to her only to take it all out straight away once I walked out of the place, and then the guy who always says hello to us at the restaurant was like 'when are you leaving?' and i said 'in half an hour' and hes like 'youre not even going to say goodbye to me!?' and came over, and I put out my hand to shake it and he gives me a hug and I stand there with my hands looking as if they've been crippled into a position of an epileptic attack after being disgusted or something, hating it. I even bloody smiled at that guy again, like the idiot I am. I've been a hormonal bitch the whole day to absolutely everyone and have not stopped complaining. not even now. fcuk.